If it hadn’t been between friends
I won’t have thought twice
After all,
She came to my liking
But of course she ignored me
'was so rowdy,so dandy after all
Like any one else of my kind.
But-
She never came close to me
Closer than a casual bench partner
Any how,
‘shifted to another town
Gosh I saw another girl
She seemed almost like my lost love
-a love which I had not shown
This time—
I didn’t falter
I showed my liking for her
But never did once she looked at me
Not even a gaze
Not even an ounce of sympathy.
Countless times,
I crossed her paths—
-consciously or sub-consciously
But she never gave her sole attention
Aha, but one time—
A time I will never forget
I some how met her alone at a fair
‘Somehow’ for her not for me.
I had just introduced myself
Then came some one from my past
Someone whom I never achieved to forget
‘coz I saw that face in every image of life
There she was—
My first image of beauty
Whom I’d come to like
But a dilemma I was, in deeply
Both I liked, latter equal to the former
It showed as beads of sweat, on my—
--cool, calm shaven face.
I turned back to ‘show
To ‘slowly’ recognize her
I looked in her eyes
Transfixed in her beauty
Consciousless moments later,
I suddenly turned back
Remembering a little someone
But she was not there—
My second image of beauty was not there
I saw her,
Going away with her other friends
With a mysterious smile on her face
And fingers crossed behind her back
I could never understand that smile
Did it symbolize my meeting with my first lady
Maybe as a gift from a mysterious friend—
A friend who ‘knew’me.more than I knew her
This is my longest poem ever,written in August'1995.I observed some face expressions amongst a group of friends at a fair,the rest is this poem.It is a teensy bit confusing but I was just beginning at that time..someday will write again on this topic to see where I have reached since then ;)
Sunday, September 10, 2006
Time And Me
Time asked me
That what’s it gonna be
That u wanna live
Or just u wanna leave
Time came to me
Askin’, how much I will give
For what I wanted
And, for whom I wanted...
Time expressed its glee
That I felt so free
And will It wait for me
If I needed that to be
I talk to Time
Coz, time isn’t on anyone’s side
I listen to It’s tic-tock
Like It listens to my chit chat…
And I leave it to Time
To allow me decide…
What’s it gonna be…??
I always wanted to write a song,tried my hands through this...I don't know what it became
That what’s it gonna be
That u wanna live
Or just u wanna leave
Time came to me
Askin’, how much I will give
For what I wanted
And, for whom I wanted...
Time expressed its glee
That I felt so free
And will It wait for me
If I needed that to be
I talk to Time
Coz, time isn’t on anyone’s side
I listen to It’s tic-tock
Like It listens to my chit chat…
And I leave it to Time
To allow me decide…
What’s it gonna be…??
I always wanted to write a song,tried my hands through this...I don't know what it became
Did You Observe
When I am with u
Did u observe that
I don’t look into your eyes anymore
When I am away from u
Did u observe that
I don’t call u at all the wrong times
When I am walking with u
Did u observe that
I don’t walk too close and..
…not so far away
When I am talking to u
Did u observe that
I take time for all your simple queries
When u ask me what I’m hiding
Did u observe
Your heart felt something my heart’s hiding.
Tell me
Did u ever observe
I had fallen for u
And am trying to rise out of it.
I looked at the question..why is called falling in love..and I came up with this answer..Written in June 2005
Did u observe that
I don’t look into your eyes anymore
When I am away from u
Did u observe that
I don’t call u at all the wrong times
When I am walking with u
Did u observe that
I don’t walk too close and..
…not so far away
When I am talking to u
Did u observe that
I take time for all your simple queries
When u ask me what I’m hiding
Did u observe
Your heart felt something my heart’s hiding.
Tell me
Did u ever observe
I had fallen for u
And am trying to rise out of it.
I looked at the question..why is called falling in love..and I came up with this answer..Written in June 2005
Same Heart
Oh how I wish I could write once more,
But the mind seems so empty
Just like my heart
No more risks it says
Even shattered pieces have limit
Can’t shatter’em any more
Too much happiness has no effect on me
I turn back to shadows,
Allowing nothing to light my way
Ask myself sometimes
This is not me…..
My brain’s the same
But the heart no longer skips a beat
It just keeps beating…..
That melancholic monotonous beat
Nothing seems to have happened
But everything did…
Someone says ‘the heart will go on’
Yes it does….oh it does
Want to move on
But come back to same old grounds
I hate the memories
And yet I live in them
Nothing else I guess to write
Well I put on the poetic cap after like 2 years or so..this came out..written in Oct 2004
But the mind seems so empty
Just like my heart
No more risks it says
Even shattered pieces have limit
Can’t shatter’em any more
Too much happiness has no effect on me
I turn back to shadows,
Allowing nothing to light my way
Ask myself sometimes
This is not me…..
My brain’s the same
But the heart no longer skips a beat
It just keeps beating…..
That melancholic monotonous beat
Nothing seems to have happened
But everything did…
Someone says ‘the heart will go on’
Yes it does….oh it does
Want to move on
But come back to same old grounds
I hate the memories
And yet I live in them
Nothing else I guess to write
Well I put on the poetic cap after like 2 years or so..this came out..written in Oct 2004
Happy New Year
A year has come and gone
Time we spent together has moved on and gone
What is left are the memories
Which will soon be forgotten
I wish there could be some changes made
To the days I was not with you
So that all my lone hours
Would be forlorn and forgotten
What would be left is
You…..your sweet smelling self
And Me……my lucky self
Hope such a year will come again
Where there will be wonderful changes
And many superb surprises
Which will improve our friendship
So for you and me
Let GOD make a wonderful year
And for all the people around us
A hope for the BETTER
Written 1999 year end,on a team mates' request..the chap needed something to spruce up his New year wishes to his Girlfriend..and I got a different topic :)
Time we spent together has moved on and gone
What is left are the memories
Which will soon be forgotten
I wish there could be some changes made
To the days I was not with you
So that all my lone hours
Would be forlorn and forgotten
What would be left is
You…..your sweet smelling self
And Me……my lucky self
Hope such a year will come again
Where there will be wonderful changes
And many superb surprises
Which will improve our friendship
So for you and me
Let GOD make a wonderful year
And for all the people around us
A hope for the BETTER
Written 1999 year end,on a team mates' request..the chap needed something to spruce up his New year wishes to his Girlfriend..and I got a different topic :)
The Flight
Phantom's a real killer
man how it dives
There goes my bogie
i'm left alone now
Smoke's curling up
from that radio tower
the superior will be happy
........but,oh no............
've hit people
but how can it be
the snaps're so precise
I can see the people dying ,crying
that smoke's taking the form....
.....form of a dog
rearing up it's hungry face
it's engulfing one & all
taking in bones and skin
all human...sometime ago
The teeth are shining....
like the blaze at the mouth
of the cannon
it's whining ....
...as if a thousand bombs struck
Oh, the victims
so desolate ,so desperate
Wish I could do something
but that dog,that war
even 'm one of it's bloody teeth
And who's baby is it
is it me,is it the victims below
No,it's them
behind cushy chairs,
under huge bunkers
they're the one's to blame
The bloodhound once unleashed is unstoppable
except by it's own master
but this one won't stop
unless it's teeth are all red
But....
this tooth has fallen
Beware , listen my message
'coz dying men don't lie
This was written around the time US invasion of Iraq happened.It's ab't a pilot who hits a target thinking it is some enemy base but then sees people dying coz of it..who is to blame..his last thoughts :(
man how it dives
There goes my bogie
i'm left alone now
Smoke's curling up
from that radio tower
the superior will be happy
........but,oh no............
've hit people
but how can it be
the snaps're so precise
I can see the people dying ,crying
that smoke's taking the form....
.....form of a dog
rearing up it's hungry face
it's engulfing one & all
taking in bones and skin
all human...sometime ago
The teeth are shining....
like the blaze at the mouth
of the cannon
it's whining ....
...as if a thousand bombs struck
Oh, the victims
so desolate ,so desperate
Wish I could do something
but that dog,that war
even 'm one of it's bloody teeth
And who's baby is it
is it me,is it the victims below
No,it's them
behind cushy chairs,
under huge bunkers
they're the one's to blame
The bloodhound once unleashed is unstoppable
except by it's own master
but this one won't stop
unless it's teeth are all red
But....
this tooth has fallen
Beware , listen my message
'coz dying men don't lie
This was written around the time US invasion of Iraq happened.It's ab't a pilot who hits a target thinking it is some enemy base but then sees people dying coz of it..who is to blame..his last thoughts :(
Do They Think Like us
Zillions of times away,
there is someone..
...who is looking at me
as I do the same
I don't know whether they have come to us
or not
But there is some link between us and them
What is that link?
I know...
...'coz I can feel it
it's the greatest gift we've been given
and maybe to them too
...it's the gift of LIFE
But do they like us
do they look like us
Do they feel like us
I don't know & I don't care
'coz one thing is common among us
the LIFE itself
Since it's been given to us and them only
so HE must have seen something common...
.....among us
Our paths will cross
one day not someday
When we meet,
Then the history will start ...
...writing it's pages
And we will be not spectators but
players
I love sci-fi movies..so inspired by that..written in Aug '02
there is someone..
...who is looking at me
as I do the same
I don't know whether they have come to us
or not
But there is some link between us and them
What is that link?
I know...
...'coz I can feel it
it's the greatest gift we've been given
and maybe to them too
...it's the gift of LIFE
But do they like us
do they look like us
Do they feel like us
I don't know & I don't care
'coz one thing is common among us
the LIFE itself
Since it's been given to us and them only
so HE must have seen something common...
.....among us
Our paths will cross
one day not someday
When we meet,
Then the history will start ...
...writing it's pages
And we will be not spectators but
players
I love sci-fi movies..so inspired by that..written in Aug '02
Friday, September 08, 2006
Another Sight
When I saw again,
I din't know what to do,
except that I wanted to...
to talk and be talked to
I wanted to go up and say hye
but I din't,
A lot of buts came up in the mind
one was will I be talked to,
or be swept away
like that fog being swept away by the sun
I gradually came to my senses,
but still not there
So I came out of it all,& saw...
...no one
It was a rude awakening from a dream
or reality
I can't say,I can't know
It had all just glued together
with my acuaintance gone...
...or maybe never there
where I wanted her to be
Written August'02 based on an encounter at HM-sec 17 ;)
I din't know what to do,
except that I wanted to...
to talk and be talked to
I wanted to go up and say hye
but I din't,
A lot of buts came up in the mind
one was will I be talked to,
or be swept away
like that fog being swept away by the sun
I gradually came to my senses,
but still not there
So I came out of it all,& saw...
...no one
It was a rude awakening from a dream
or reality
I can't say,I can't know
It had all just glued together
with my acuaintance gone...
...or maybe never there
where I wanted her to be
Written August'02 based on an encounter at HM-sec 17 ;)
That Tootie Frootie Feeling
I'm hurt some place,
some place deep
Which is unfathomable
remorse maybe there
But how to express all this,
Can I say it's a feeling
or maybe a premonition of...
of something ab't to happen
Look all around I see faces
but none I can call mine
coz mine is a MINE
pardon me,not a goldmine
but a coal mine from which even ...
...diamonds or sapphires might arise
But that's rare,unlike some other people
See i'm floundering,can't even keep-
-thoughts,my feelings at bay
that's why I'm calling it a tootie--
--frootie feeling
coz'it can be sweet and it can be sour
But this feeling is in everyone
who is insatiable
who is mortal
who is HUMAN
Written in 2001,a topic given to me by a roomie..
some place deep
Which is unfathomable
remorse maybe there
But how to express all this,
Can I say it's a feeling
or maybe a premonition of...
of something ab't to happen
Look all around I see faces
but none I can call mine
coz mine is a MINE
pardon me,not a goldmine
but a coal mine from which even ...
...diamonds or sapphires might arise
But that's rare,unlike some other people
See i'm floundering,can't even keep-
-thoughts,my feelings at bay
that's why I'm calling it a tootie--
--frootie feeling
coz'it can be sweet and it can be sour
But this feeling is in everyone
who is insatiable
who is mortal
who is HUMAN
Written in 2001,a topic given to me by a roomie..
Away From Home
The word home is so securing,so enlivening
I know I would never like to be away
I know there are many--
-- who think the same way
but end up being away
They say u never know unless u try it out
'm quite sure they 're right
How one becomes so independent
one never knows
he has to have a seperate circle--
--develop a comradree
It has to be a home away from home
but don't forget your parents
without u it's no home for them
'coz for them u are everything
So when at home,cover up --
--the gap
give them your 100%
and see how they remain
with u always
Written towards end of 2000 sitting in my hostel room at Thapar,Patiala
I know I would never like to be away
I know there are many--
-- who think the same way
but end up being away
They say u never know unless u try it out
'm quite sure they 're right
How one becomes so independent
one never knows
he has to have a seperate circle--
--develop a comradree
It has to be a home away from home
but don't forget your parents
without u it's no home for them
'coz for them u are everything
So when at home,cover up --
--the gap
give them your 100%
and see how they remain
with u always
Written towards end of 2000 sitting in my hostel room at Thapar,Patiala
A Reason To Laff
How can there be a reason to laff
've always thought laffing to be unreasonable
But wait a minute,me thinks there is one
laffing brings that openess in u ..
..that which is always lacking
Laffing attracts attention towards u..
..that which u are always craving for
Laffing can take u into someone's heart..
..whom u have always wanted
Laffing can take u overboard in a civil manner..
..that which u can't do even when u are drunk.
..or want to believe so
But most importantly,laffing is tax-free
maybe the only positive thing which..
..deserves to be so
SOOOOooo...laff away all your worries
my dear friends
and let a tension free life take over
LIFE THRU LAFF,GeT iT
've always thought laffing to be unreasonable
But wait a minute,me thinks there is one
laffing brings that openess in u ..
..that which is always lacking
Laffing attracts attention towards u..
..that which u are always craving for
Laffing can take u into someone's heart..
..whom u have always wanted
Laffing can take u overboard in a civil manner..
..that which u can't do even when u are drunk.
..or want to believe so
But most importantly,laffing is tax-free
maybe the only positive thing which..
..deserves to be so
SOOOOooo...laff away all your worries
my dear friends
and let a tension free life take over
LIFE THRU LAFF,GeT iT
Road To Success
Whenever soft light glistens over
wet hard roads
Somehow I don't know why
I feel as if it's questioning me
Why I can't believe that--
-life is hard like a road
but it's the light in us
which enlightens this road
But how to explain this`light'
can I call it my own possession
Even that glistening light is possessed by
a whole new environment
Maybe this enlightening light inside me
is tribute of goodwill to me
surpassed by nothing new or old
By the world around me,which has tested me
time and again
Satisfying itself that I can tread the countless roads
to SUCCESS
written in 2000,while studying for CA Inter exams..oh cleared them btw:)
wet hard roads
Somehow I don't know why
I feel as if it's questioning me
Why I can't believe that--
-life is hard like a road
but it's the light in us
which enlightens this road
But how to explain this`light'
can I call it my own possession
Even that glistening light is possessed by
a whole new environment
Maybe this enlightening light inside me
is tribute of goodwill to me
surpassed by nothing new or old
By the world around me,which has tested me
time and again
Satisfying itself that I can tread the countless roads
to SUCCESS
written in 2000,while studying for CA Inter exams..oh cleared them btw:)
WIND OR A FACE
Wisps of wind are coming around
wisking me to some other time
Which has passed or will pass--
--I don't know
I see something,I hear something--
--I can't say
It comes again & again taking--
-- my attention
I'm so confused,I can't even write
These winds are winds of some fragrance
maybe a phantom of my mind
but I sure do recognize them
Funny I use the word 'recognize'
'coz,I can't bring together that-
-that name,that face
But these winds they will help
Written for no reason in 1999...
wisking me to some other time
Which has passed or will pass--
--I don't know
I see something,I hear something--
--I can't say
It comes again & again taking--
-- my attention
I'm so confused,I can't even write
These winds are winds of some fragrance
maybe a phantom of my mind
but I sure do recognize them
Funny I use the word 'recognize'
'coz,I can't bring together that-
-that name,that face
But these winds they will help
Written for no reason in 1999...
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