A 'Mysterious' Friend

If it hadn’t been between friends
   I won’t have thought twice

After all,
   She came to my liking
   But of course she ignored me
 'was so rowdy,so dandy after all
  Like any one else of my kind.

But-
   She never came close to me
  Closer than a casual bench partner

Any how,
   ‘shifted to another town
   Gosh I saw another girl
   She seemed almost like my lost love
   -a love which I had not shown

This time—
   I didn’t falter
   I showed my liking for her
  But never did once she looked at me
  Not even a gaze
     Not even an ounce of sympathy.

Countless times,
 I crossed her paths—
  -consciously or sub-consciously
  But she never gave her sole attention

Aha, but one time—
 A time I will never forget
 I some how met her alone at a fair
 ‘Somehow’ for her not for me.

I had just introduced myself
 Then came some one from my past
 Someone whom I never achieved to forget
 ‘coz I saw that face in every image of life

There she was—
    My first image of beauty
    Whom I’d come to like

But a dilemma I was, in deeply
Both I liked, latter equal to the former
It showed as beads of sweat, on my—
     --cool, calm shaven face.

I turned back to ‘show
    To ‘slowly’ recognize her
I looked in her eyes
    Transfixed in her beauty

Consciousless moments later,
    I suddenly turned back
    Remembering a little someone
  But she was not there—
  My second image of beauty was not there

I saw her,
    Going away with her other friends
With a mysterious smile on her face
And fingers crossed behind her back

I could never understand that smile
   Did it symbolize my meeting with my first lady
   Maybe as a gift from a mysterious friend—
 A friend who ‘knew’me.more than I knew her


This is my longest poem ever,written in August'1995.I observed some face expressions amongst a group of friends at a fair,the rest is this poem.It is a teensy bit confusing but I was just beginning at that time..someday will write again on this topic to see where I have reached since then ;)